Weekly email prompts - Day 3

I'm actually behind and skipped the actual Day 3 prompts but will come back to them when I feel like writing about them. Yesterday I wrote this one, so this prompt is a little late. And yes, I already screwed up daily writing exercises within the first week.
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Reflect on yesterday's events and identify moments that happened spontaneously. Explore how you felt during those moments.


Yesterday I was at a Memorial Day BBQ with Stuart's family. One spontaneous moment that comes to mind is when his aunt Judy was telling me that I'm going to the lake trip this year, that she needs me to go and that she had a wonderful time with me last year, "more than you'll ever know." My eyes started to water. She wanted to know why I was against going, and I told her it was because it's expensive and I have no way to help pay. She said that she understands that I'm not a person who expects others to pay for me, she knows I'm a good person and wants me to be involved in the family vacation. I felt so loved. This is a woman I've spent one week with at the lake trip last year and have seen not many times other than that, and she is willing to pay my way on the trip because she values my company. It makes me happy to know that my personality is so valued and that, even though she barely knows me, she realizes it's hard for me to allow others to pay such an amount of money on me. I truly love Stuart's family and I am happy I get to go on this year's trip, despite still wanting to figure out a way to help financially. I will most definitely be helping with clean up and everything like that, but of course I would have done that anyway even if I paid for myself, as I did last year.

Weekly email prompts - Day 2

I chose one writing prompt to feature for this blog. Ode to mom.
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What is the greatest intangible gift given you?
I don't recall if it was a graduation card or just a birthday card, but there is one particular card my mother gave me that I had on display in my room for a while (until I packed it up, moved and am unsure of where it is now) of which I held dear to me because of the message held inside. While I'd like to find that card again to display, I don't need the tangible item because the message is in my heart.
    My mother expressed in written words that she was proud of me. I have not really done anything note-worthy in my life, no outrageous achievements, no overwhelming success and for some reason I find it hard to say "I love you" to my family even though I truly do and appreciate all the support and love they've given to me. Despite all that, my mother is still proud of me. This means a lot to me because I try to be a good person and I try not to be a horrible daughter.
    At one point in our relationship, my mother had told me that she thought she did a bad job being a mother. My response was to feel that I'd let her down. I don't know what changed her mind or what made her feel so strongly to say that in the first place, but reading that card a few years later made me cry happy tears. I hope I can continue to make her proud. I know it is because of her that I am the nice, strong, generous person I am today. She set examples for me, and while she may not think I took notice, I did and do my best to follow them.
    Now if only I wrote this in time for Mother's Day.

Weekly email prompts - Day 1

On days like this, when I get the email course I signed up for, I will do them instead of the random daily ones I do from the website previously mentioned
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Inner Journey Dip, Module 1: 5-minute glide
Spend 5 minutes writing about and exploring any of these questions/statements. Choose 1 for today's 5-minute glide and do the others when you have free time.

1. What past deed defines Nichole Owens?
I think one thing in my past that continues to shape who I am today would be 'the cheater.' I had cheated on every boyfriend I had before I was 22. I came to the conclusion that the reason I did it was lack of communication. I didn't know how to communicate with my significant others that there were problems in our relationship, so instead of confronting them, I participated in an action that would cause me to have to break up with them. With Stuart, I prided myself in not cheating. And it's silly because that should just be a given, something not even noteworthy, yet every so often I'd pat myself on the back for being a loyal and open girlfriend. It's like an alcoholic who gets rewarded with a chip for sobriety.
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2. What is that one question whose answer continues to elude you?
"What job do you want to do for the rest of your life?" I have no answer for that. I've never really had an answer for that and yet I spent lots of money on random classes in community college. Prices have gone up considerably and I can't just take random classes anymore, I have to have a goal, but I don't have one. People keep saying that since I'm unemployed that I should go back to school, but it's pointless if I don't know what I want to do with my life. I think I'd enjoy any job I did if I knew it was for a good cause. I want to be able to help people. I was able to land a volunteer gig at Camp Ronald McDonald as a councilor and am so excited I've been given this opportunity. Throughout my life camp has been a constant thing. After I was too old to attend camp, I still tried to help by raising awareness and raising money for their fundraisers. I want to continue to do so. They have been and always will be a big part of my life and if I could turn that into a career, I think I'd be incredibly happy.
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If you want to know where I got these or any of the other prompts, let me know. Also, feel free to do the prompt yourself and share it with me via entry comment.